Today on the street corner after lunch talking to some friends outside, catching up on the latest gossip (talk) I found out that a few of my other friends started going out together. It was only a matter of time. Two of the people, one couple, I know would be great for each other. It was only a matter of time, like I said, and i'm really happy for them. You know, I really hope things work out between them, if that's what God planned. Well, now the other couple kind of shocked me, but at the same time it didn't. I didn't shock me in light of the fact that these two spend a lot of time together and see each other mulitple times in the week on a regular basis. However, it I did shock me in the sense that them two would be a couple?? I didn't know whether to be happy, or just sorry. I know that sounds kind of harsh, but i just couldn't see them together. If they're not right for one another, hopefully they find out early on the relationship.
It seems like everyone has been hooking up together lately. Unlikely people I would never pair together, even people I know who aren't yet in the relationship, but may be on the verge of one because they have an admiror that they kind of like too, but they haven't savored passed "the friendship stage" yet, you know? But anyway, as hard as I try not to measure myself against the odds, i stepped on the scale of doom yet another time today. (sigh). Still alone. I get attention sometimes, yeah, but that doesn't substitute being in an actual relationship with someone who really cares about you and looks out for your best interesest. Someone who really understands you and offers themself to you, and their presence brings you sheer comfort. I try so hard to be strong. I understand by now that i am to wait. I did so well last week...but now, well, now I just got to dig my heels in the dirt, suck it up, and play this game called love that I continue to loose in.
I see so many people that I think could be him. Sometimes I fear that my expectations are to high, and i'm setting myself up for disappointment. I hope to God I won't be disappointed. All I can do is hope. All I have left is hope. All I can do is have faith, and keep the faith. And the Word says faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we cannot see.
Thought I cannot see him now, he's there. But i feel like i need him to come here, right now. Soon. Please.
It seems like everyone has been hooking up together lately. Unlikely people I would never pair together, even people I know who aren't yet in the relationship, but may be on the verge of one because they have an admiror that they kind of like too, but they haven't savored passed "the friendship stage" yet, you know? But anyway, as hard as I try not to measure myself against the odds, i stepped on the scale of doom yet another time today. (sigh). Still alone. I get attention sometimes, yeah, but that doesn't substitute being in an actual relationship with someone who really cares about you and looks out for your best interesest. Someone who really understands you and offers themself to you, and their presence brings you sheer comfort. I try so hard to be strong. I understand by now that i am to wait. I did so well last week...but now, well, now I just got to dig my heels in the dirt, suck it up, and play this game called love that I continue to loose in.
I see so many people that I think could be him. Sometimes I fear that my expectations are to high, and i'm setting myself up for disappointment. I hope to God I won't be disappointed. All I can do is hope. All I have left is hope. All I can do is have faith, and keep the faith. And the Word says faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we cannot see.
Thought I cannot see him now, he's there. But i feel like i need him to come here, right now. Soon. Please.
Soon.
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